when post A's finally hit me more than a week ago,i couldnt help but stare into blank space with mixed feelings.part of me was ecstatic,for what seemed an eternity had finally came to end.but part of me was nostalgic,for it would mean the last of me clad in a school uniform.while i just spare a minute or two on the bus ride,beautiful memories of this chapter of my life captivated me.inevitably,there will be the many little achievements each one of us were so proud of.
i would not be able hold my head up high and walk out of this phase saying i was a wonderful student with many achievements,but all i can say is,i am ready to let go of what had been a routinal lifestyle.
slept early.woke early.rise and shine.changed up.school.lunch.after-school-activities.home.tutorials.dinner.repeat
A's was somewhat a nightmare.a nightmare not to be re-enacted.all i have is the vague memory of sitting on the couch after GP,thinking how nonsensical my essay was,sorting out all my thoughts when i screwed up math badly,regretting giving up on chemistry,trying to gather my senses and rushed for econs and physics,only to be demoralised by the challenging physics papers,went blank on econs essay and not doing well for what was remaining.it was more than just a nightmare.it haunts.even till now.
anyhow,what was worse was how you see people comparing answers after every paper and the answers seemed unfamiliar to you,receiving sms-es from others who said papers were pretty attemptable,reaching home with a tired soul.
for all that had happened,i thank god for the peace and endurance through these physically and mentally torturing days.and i have to thank my wonderful family for the support and faith,not forgetting all of you guys who kept me going,but also my dear elder who managed to just calm my nerves before the start of A's and saw me through this time of trials.
had been looking forward to trainings after A's and since it was a load off my mind,national trainings started to pack into my post A's calendar.somehow,it was just more than frustration that i felt when i was hit by a devastating injury right on the first session after A's.the doctor's advice was at least 6 weeks out.anyhow,the coaches will ring up the final travelling squad tomorrow,or more like hours later,but things dont look too good.anyhow,im just hoping for the best,if not,im just purely glad that things brought me thus far even though it had been no more than 2 months together with the national team boys,it brought me much joy and many experiences.
'cause all of stars are fading away
just try not to worry you'll see them someday
take what you need and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out
i would not be able hold my head up high and walk out of this phase saying i was a wonderful student with many achievements,but all i can say is,i am ready to let go of what had been a routinal lifestyle.
slept early.woke early.rise and shine.changed up.school.lunch.after-school-activities.home.tutorials.dinner.repeat
A's was somewhat a nightmare.a nightmare not to be re-enacted.all i have is the vague memory of sitting on the couch after GP,thinking how nonsensical my essay was,sorting out all my thoughts when i screwed up math badly,regretting giving up on chemistry,trying to gather my senses and rushed for econs and physics,only to be demoralised by the challenging physics papers,went blank on econs essay and not doing well for what was remaining.it was more than just a nightmare.it haunts.even till now.
anyhow,what was worse was how you see people comparing answers after every paper and the answers seemed unfamiliar to you,receiving sms-es from others who said papers were pretty attemptable,reaching home with a tired soul.
for all that had happened,i thank god for the peace and endurance through these physically and mentally torturing days.and i have to thank my wonderful family for the support and faith,not forgetting all of you guys who kept me going,but also my dear elder who managed to just calm my nerves before the start of A's and saw me through this time of trials.
had been looking forward to trainings after A's and since it was a load off my mind,national trainings started to pack into my post A's calendar.somehow,it was just more than frustration that i felt when i was hit by a devastating injury right on the first session after A's.the doctor's advice was at least 6 weeks out.anyhow,the coaches will ring up the final travelling squad tomorrow,or more like hours later,but things dont look too good.anyhow,im just hoping for the best,if not,im just purely glad that things brought me thus far even though it had been no more than 2 months together with the national team boys,it brought me much joy and many experiences.
'cause all of stars are fading away
just try not to worry you'll see them someday
take what you need and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out
