1058.khainam was sitting on the 2nd column of E21-E23. frantically trying to finish his math paper.but to no avail.
happy endings for many.sad for some.disheartening for me.hahaha.but whatever the case.it's all over.and sitting down this aftnoon,trying to recall what happened through the 4 days was so amusing.
tuesday.woke up and found myself stuck in a pile of shitty array of phy and econs notes.procastination for the whole year and the "whyyouworry" attitude showed me my just desserts when the clock struck 1400 and i was stuck with one topic.i kind of got so nervous that i told myself,"what the heck,just give it up and retain for good".but that picture of mom and i in that ikea photo frame pressed me on.well.i did make an effort to complete as much as i can.but..well.u know wads the effect of cramming so much in one day.
wednesday.physics at 8.was really grateful to carson and andy for their help in clearing some last min concepts.got into hall.found myself directly beneath the aircon.freezing.stuck at MCQs.the came essay questions.werent much better.blanks here and there.nothing i could do.i couldnt even crap a single thing to fill those blanks.phy ended and at 10.one paper down.3 to go.one more 3 hrs later.saw jag off at the gate as he went home and i sourced for a quiet corner to cramp econs concepts into my puny brain.cldnt have more time to practice some mcqs.was trying desperately to get the essay part.my whole mind was filled with so many MC,P,AR,MR,TVC,AVC.i nearly got so mixed up.1300.econs.mcq was hell.ans given were so damn close.but ahh.essay wasnt that good too.25 mark question was screwed big time.but well.paper ended in 2h10 mins.took a cab home in hope to mug harder for chem on the nxt day.
wednesday evening.got back home and sis was watching "goodbye lenin".i was hooked on it too.wasted a good 2 to 3 hrs.oh mann.and when i realised wad kind of state im in.it was too late.no concepts on org chem.had to mug the whole damn thing in less than a day.zzz.i was trying desperately to mug for the whole thing.but.sigh.i tried.the whole night.i dint catch any sleep.dad woke up a couple of times and urged me to bed.shd have listened to him.and leaving out alcohol was such a damned mistake.
thurs,0800.commencement of chem.was sitting at the last column behind sam.man.i got that paper and my mind was in a whirl.then a blank.i was like.oh wadde hell is this.cldnt get the rxns and things.shit pit i was falling into.i sat and i nearly cried becos it was the worst paper of my whole promos.i knew this was gonna hit me.sitting down on my seat.knowing how to do nothing.paper ended at 1015.den again.took cab and gave jag a lift to queensway.haha.but damn it lar.the 2 days of cabbing shrunk my wallet a hell lot.
got back home at 1130.i was so damn tired.had lunch with dad and knocked out completely.i dint even know dad went out to get stuffs.woke up and found myself in bed and the clock showing 1430.i felt it was okay and began getting my math stuffs.just the same old thing.having difficulties with integration and some impt concepts.did not spend the day practicing.but instead was trying to clear concepts and get formulae rightt.slept at an early half past ten aft a lesson learnt.
friday.the alarm went.i woke at 0530.interation formulae are not in my head yet.oh mann.i knew i will be dead lar.tried to force it in on my way to school with carson and andy.oh.carson.thankyou so much for your help at cafe.haha.and andy.thanks for coaching me physics.ahh.but i went into E block and my whole head was like."ahh last paper.maybe it does make a diff,maybe not.so why worry so much."got my writing paper and the paper commenced at 0758.i spent a good 10 mins.writing down formulae for integration,differentiation and trigo down.explaining whyi did not have the time at the back and was really panicky.math was relatively better than my other papers. but the obstacle came at question 6 and it was almost all the way down..zzz.demoralising paper somehow.gerald walked over and said he left out too many marks.guess it will be okay dude.but ahh.so many felt it was okay.easier than expected.but i looked at jag and we shook our heads.zzz.
so 1100.all was completed.handed my script and arranged the tables back into their original positions and was wandering where the class will be heading.but then got spilt up and so no choice.left with jag and me again.and oh mann.jag stunned me with those swift moves in sth..wth.lunched and talked a tad more than usual.so many things abt sch.retaining.life.and career before heading home and got hooked on CM till now.but ahh..SPA on monday.zzz..certainly not the best time to have it..hahaha.
oh well.guess i will have to enjoy myself throughout this weekend and a couple of days more before i get those saddening results back.sighh.till then..
happy endings for many.sad for some.disheartening for me.hahaha.but whatever the case.it's all over.and sitting down this aftnoon,trying to recall what happened through the 4 days was so amusing.
tuesday.woke up and found myself stuck in a pile of shitty array of phy and econs notes.procastination for the whole year and the "whyyouworry" attitude showed me my just desserts when the clock struck 1400 and i was stuck with one topic.i kind of got so nervous that i told myself,"what the heck,just give it up and retain for good".but that picture of mom and i in that ikea photo frame pressed me on.well.i did make an effort to complete as much as i can.but..well.u know wads the effect of cramming so much in one day.
wednesday.physics at 8.was really grateful to carson and andy for their help in clearing some last min concepts.got into hall.found myself directly beneath the aircon.freezing.stuck at MCQs.the came essay questions.werent much better.blanks here and there.nothing i could do.i couldnt even crap a single thing to fill those blanks.phy ended and at 10.one paper down.3 to go.one more 3 hrs later.saw jag off at the gate as he went home and i sourced for a quiet corner to cramp econs concepts into my puny brain.cldnt have more time to practice some mcqs.was trying desperately to get the essay part.my whole mind was filled with so many MC,P,AR,MR,TVC,AVC.i nearly got so mixed up.1300.econs.mcq was hell.ans given were so damn close.but ahh.essay wasnt that good too.25 mark question was screwed big time.but well.paper ended in 2h10 mins.took a cab home in hope to mug harder for chem on the nxt day.
wednesday evening.got back home and sis was watching "goodbye lenin".i was hooked on it too.wasted a good 2 to 3 hrs.oh mann.and when i realised wad kind of state im in.it was too late.no concepts on org chem.had to mug the whole damn thing in less than a day.zzz.i was trying desperately to mug for the whole thing.but.sigh.i tried.the whole night.i dint catch any sleep.dad woke up a couple of times and urged me to bed.shd have listened to him.and leaving out alcohol was such a damned mistake.
thurs,0800.commencement of chem.was sitting at the last column behind sam.man.i got that paper and my mind was in a whirl.then a blank.i was like.oh wadde hell is this.cldnt get the rxns and things.shit pit i was falling into.i sat and i nearly cried becos it was the worst paper of my whole promos.i knew this was gonna hit me.sitting down on my seat.knowing how to do nothing.paper ended at 1015.den again.took cab and gave jag a lift to queensway.haha.but damn it lar.the 2 days of cabbing shrunk my wallet a hell lot.
got back home at 1130.i was so damn tired.had lunch with dad and knocked out completely.i dint even know dad went out to get stuffs.woke up and found myself in bed and the clock showing 1430.i felt it was okay and began getting my math stuffs.just the same old thing.having difficulties with integration and some impt concepts.did not spend the day practicing.but instead was trying to clear concepts and get formulae rightt.slept at an early half past ten aft a lesson learnt.
friday.the alarm went.i woke at 0530.interation formulae are not in my head yet.oh mann.i knew i will be dead lar.tried to force it in on my way to school with carson and andy.oh.carson.thankyou so much for your help at cafe.haha.and andy.thanks for coaching me physics.ahh.but i went into E block and my whole head was like."ahh last paper.maybe it does make a diff,maybe not.so why worry so much."got my writing paper and the paper commenced at 0758.i spent a good 10 mins.writing down formulae for integration,differentiation and trigo down.explaining whyi did not have the time at the back and was really panicky.math was relatively better than my other papers. but the obstacle came at question 6 and it was almost all the way down..zzz.demoralising paper somehow.gerald walked over and said he left out too many marks.guess it will be okay dude.but ahh.so many felt it was okay.easier than expected.but i looked at jag and we shook our heads.zzz.
so 1100.all was completed.handed my script and arranged the tables back into their original positions and was wandering where the class will be heading.but then got spilt up and so no choice.left with jag and me again.and oh mann.jag stunned me with those swift moves in sth..wth.lunched and talked a tad more than usual.so many things abt sch.retaining.life.and career before heading home and got hooked on CM till now.but ahh..SPA on monday.zzz..certainly not the best time to have it..hahaha.
oh well.guess i will have to enjoy myself throughout this weekend and a couple of days more before i get those saddening results back.sighh.till then..
